I find it interesting that Amara implied she’s seeking out specific characteristics in the souls she’s eating. She told the girl at the beginning that she wanted to be more like her, and then ate her soul, which leads me to believe that she’s gaining something more than pure energy from her diet.
Although the people she leaves soulless still have their memories, they lack the emotional content of those memories. I’m wondering if this is what Amara is absorbing into herself in her attempt to understand her brother’s creation.
**Side note: I definitely don’t believe that Amara and God are literally brother and sister born of the same parents. They are simply the first two entities that sprang from the initial burst of creation, which I keep comparing to the big bang theory, but which I’m now trying to mentally reconcile with the notion of cell division. They started off as one thing which split in half, which became the original duality. The show’s been pounding the notion into our heads for over a year that the only workable solution to a duality is reunification, but that’s been discussed ad infinitum so I’ll just mention it in passing here.**
With Amara’s template for humanity established as Dean Winchester, what about that girl drew Amara to her? All we learned about the girl was that her parents were very controlling, to the point she had to sneak out of the house to even enjoy a snack of junk food without feeling her mother’s judgment. She wasn’t allowed to date, except for a few months during the summer, so essentially she wasn’t allowed to form long-term or significant relationships.
We’ve seen flashbacks to Dean’s life as a teenager. He had to sneak out of the duties his father imposed on him in order to have a little fun playing a video game. He had one “summer of love” with Robin where he could finally experience what it’s like to be a “real boy” (yes another Pinocchio/puppet reference), but his father put an end to it by dragging him back for a hunt before the relationship really had a chance to really develop. We also know Dean has a very weird relationship with food, and always has. (and very long and excellent metas have been written on the subject, so again, not going into it here).
When Crowley capitulated and brought Amara a “snack,” she told him she wasn’t hungry. I’m betting that’s because she just didn’t have an interest in Crowley’s choice of food.
Amara at first feasted on caretakers: (Jenna who cared for her as an infant, the suburban family of three that Crowley lured her into the van with, her nanny who obviously understood Amara and her needs far better than Crowley did and provided her with much better reading material and care). She found Sydney first, someone who’d tried to show her care, and rewarded her for it until Sydney inadvertently pissed her off, which Amara was so insulted by that she ate her soul anyway. Then again, maybe whatever “bliss” Amara gave to Sydney just made her soul taste better, and her intent was to consume her all along?
Then she sought out Lizzie Borden, and people associated with her. I’m not sure if she did that because of the things she learned from eating Sydney’s soul, or because her original intent had been to learn more about Lizzie Borden herself, but it does seem worth mentioning given Sydney’s connection with the house and the people who owned it. Which is how she met Len almost by accident. Len was just there doing his SUPERFAN thing, and Amara found that interesting enough to want to experience his soul, too.
I don’t think she likes feeding indiscriminately. I think she prefers a particular flavor in the people she eats. (and here I have to mention how I can’t stop comparing this to iZombie, how Liv takes on the personality of the person whose brain she’s eaten most recently for a while. It’s actually a really good comparison to what I believe Amara is getting on a more internalized emotional level from the soul energy she’s eating).
Yes, she’s eaten her way through half of Crowley’s demon servants, but I think demons might provide her some sort of energy or sustenance, they lack that spark of humanity that she gets from eating pure, undemonized human souls. Demons have always been presented as lacking whatever it was that Crowley seemed to gain while he was addicted to human blood, and THAT is what Amara is actually craving.
Back to the “snack” that Crowley brought to Amara, and she rejected. He was wearing a postal service uniform. I think Crowley just yoinked their mailman off the street out of convenience. I know it’s not true, but the stereotype is that civil servants in general are rather soulless individuals who work through the daily grind of endless monotony. They aren’t generally known for their sense of rebellion or adventure. They are staid. They are buttoned down cogs in the big machine. **well, unless they snap and ‘go postal,’ as it were, but that’s another story, and possibly even implied here**
Regardless, I believe Amara is looking for highly specific souls to eat. She’s desperately trying to understand God’s creation, which for her is epitomized in the being of Dean Winchester, and is looking to consume souls that bear some resemblance to his own. She’s fascinated by it. She wants to dissect it and understand it so she can learn to wield it like a weapon against its creator. Dean is her template for the ideal weapon. In his very own words from 10.22, he does, after all, kill gods.
I just thought Amara meant “I want to be a teenager” when she said “I want to be like you” (since she needs to eat souls to age), but this is WAY more interesting :-p
It also seems like she is trying to recreate Dean’s soul (bare with me here)? Dean is the first thing she encountered when she was released, she sees him as the ultimate example of humanity, something she’s striving to understand and possibly assimilate to. I think each person whose soul she has eaten represents a different part of Dean.
- Jenna- She was willing to take on the role of mother for a child she was not ready for, much like Dean took on the role as Sam’s mother. It is also implied that she resentful of her caregiver, her grandmother. Jenna didn’t show any signs of this when she had her soul but as soon as it was gone she killed her grandmother. This again represents Dean’s feelings to his upbringing. Also of note is that Jenna’s sexuality was ambiguous. We don’t know if she was bi or pan or a lesbian but what we do know is that she wasn’t straight.
- Random Demon- Represented Dean’s time as a demon. Not much to tease out of this one.
- Len- He represented Dean’s dedication to the family business. Len lost all of his friends and family to his obsession with Lizzy Borden and her family. He has nothing but his obsession. Dean currently also has very little outside of hunting. Besides Sam and Cas, everyone around him has left or died as a direct result of his lifestyle.
- Sydney- Sydney had a cool and collected exterior but in reality she is deeply damaged. Sydney and her sister were severely physically abused by her parents growing up. She also seems to have a tendency to turn to alcohol to solve her problems. After being dumped by her boyfriend, she got near blackout drunk instead of facing her emotional trauma. This is fitting for both Dean’s childhood AND season 7 when he was mourning Cas’ death.
- Goldie- She was a rebel and felt smothered by her parents harsh rules. Again, this calls back to Dean’s resentment of John.
She is definitely picking what souls to eat very carefully and I think it’s because she’s trying to recreate “humanity”
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